dia tak bicara
hanya tersenyum
menghemat perhatian
waktu
dia sakit
menangis tanpa suara
sendiri
hanya diam
dia bukan orang yang bisa mengumumkan kepedihan
juga tak kuasa melantukan kekecewaan
apalagi melukis air mata
dan akhirnya terdiam di gua kecilnya
selagi tetap dihakimi
terus dilukai
berdiri dengan rangka yang retak
tertawa dengan rahang yang remuk
Two weeks ago, I went to the youth service at Buddhist Fellowship. I was told a story of a great emperor that had three questions in his mind. One day, he was lucky to meet Buddha and he asked his three questions:
When I heard the questions, I answered to myself. My most important time might be the time I was born, when my mommy really bet her life to give birth to me. Then my most important people are my parents and to make them happy is the most important thing for me to do.
However, those are not the answers Buddha gave. Instead, Buddha answered:
Buddha is absolutely right.
In this post, I will concentrate on the first part, the most important time.
Last week, I went there again and a part of the meditation session focusing about letting go the past, future, and more concerning about now, somehow connected to the previous week's talk.
We cannot do anything to change our past, and the future has not even come yet. Nevertheless, people, including me, tend to keep regretting the past. In addition, we think too much about the future although we actually know precisely that we cannot really arrange the future because we will never know what is coming. However, now is a gift. That is why it is called present.
And I found this writing that has been staying in my to-be-posted-on-blog folder for such a long time…
Today I will delete from my diary two days:
yesterday and tomorrow
Yesterday was to learn
and tomorrow will be the consequence
of what I can do today.
Today I will face life
with the conviction that
this day will not ever return.
Today is the last opportunity
I have to live intensely,
as no one can assure me that
I will see tomorrow's sunrise.
Today I will be brave enough
not to let any opportunity pass me by,
my only alternative is to succeed.
Today I will invest my most valuable resource:
my time,
In the most transcendental work:
my life.
I will spend each minute passionately
to make of today a different and unique day in my life.
Today I will defy every obstacle
that appears on my way trusting
I will succeed.
Today I will resist pessimism
and will conquer the world with a smile,
with the positive attitude of expecting always the best.
Today I will make of every ordinary task
a sublime expression,
Today I will have my feet on the ground
understanding reality
and the stars' gaze to invent my future.
Today I will take the time to be happy
and will leave my footprints
and my presence in the hearts of others.
Today, I invite you to begin a new season
where we can dream
that everything we undertake is possible
and we fulfill it with joy and dignity.
When the strings are jumbled up,
let's get relax a bit...
When a lot of things to think about,
let the brain idle for a while...
When things seen does not go well,
let's see unseen...
When you ask but you don't get it,
let's wait...
When you shout but no answer,
let's be silent...
When it's too dark to take a step,
let's wait for the sunrise...
When the wave becomes higher,
let's go to the beach and rest for a while ...
When you knock the door but it's not opened,
let's sit and take a rest...
When it seems no control over it,
let's know a simple truth...
Someone cares...
has control over everything...
He knows not only the good thing,
but the very best
Let's have a rest...
Let's have a faith and be faithful...
Let's see the hope...
Hope that never fades away...
Kepada sahabat-sahabatku yang jomblo,
Cinta ibarat kupu–kupu. Semakin kamu kejar, semakin ia menghindar...
Akan tetapi bila kamu biarkan ia terbang, ia akan menghampirimu di saat kau tidak menduganya.
Cinta hanya istimewa bila kamu memberikannya pada seseorang yang layak menerimanya.
Jangan terburu-buru dan pilihlah yang terbaik...
Kepada sahabat-sahabatku yang takut mengakui,
Cinta menyakitkan bila kamu putuskan hubungan cintamu dengan seseorang.
Akan tetapi sebenarnya akan lebih sakit lagi mengetahui bahwa orang yang kamu cintai sama sekali tidak mengetahui perasaanmu terhadapnya.
Kepada sahabat-sahabatku yang sudah ada yang punya,
Cinta bukanlah perkara menjadi "orang sempurna" nya seseorang.
Ini adalah perkara menemukan seseorang yang bisa membantumu menjadikan dirimu menjadi sempurna.
Kepada sahabat-sahabatku yang sedang patah jantung (ga enak ya? Tapi emang yang bener tu jantung, bukan hati tau... coba kamu pura-pura peragain jadi orang yang lagi sakit "hati" terus ngomong... "Sakit hatiku!" yang kamu pegang apa? Dada apa perut kanan atas?),
Sakit itu akan bertahan selama kamu menginginkannya dan akan mengiris-ngiris jantungmu sedalam kau membiarkannya.
Tantangannya bukanlah bagaimana bisa mengatasi, melainkan apa yang bisa diambil sebagai pelajaran dan hikmahnya.
Kepada sahabat-sahabatku yang masih bertahan,
Hal menyedihkan dalam hidup ialah bila kau bertemu seseorang, lalu kamu jatuh cinta, hanya untuk pada akhirnya menyadari bahwa dia bukanlah jodohmu dan kamu telah menyi-nyiakan bertahun-tahun untuk seseorang yang tidak layak menerima cintamu. Kalau sekarang pun dia tak layak bagimu, 10 tahun, 15 tahun pun, dia tidak akan layak bagimu. TIDAK AKAN PERNAH! Percayalah! Sadar! Bangun dari mimpimu! Buang jauh-jauh anganmu! Biarkan dia pergi... Lupakanlah...
Kepada sahabat-sahabatku yang suka bermain-main,
Jangan katakan cinta bila kau tidak benar-benar peduli.
Jangan bicarakan soal perasaan bila itu tidak benar-benar ada.
Jangan kau sentuh hidup seseorang bila dari awal kau berniat mematahkan hatinya.
Jangan kau usik dirinya.
Jangan nodai mawar putih di jantungnya.
Jangan menatap ke dalam matanya bila apa yang kamu kerjakan cuma sandiwara.
Hal terkejam di dunia adalah membuat seseorang jatuh cinta padamu, padahal kau tidak berniat sama sekali untuk menerimanya saat ia "terjatuh".
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